Living with Chronic Conditions: How They Affect Daily Life

I’ve really struggled socially trying to make friends due to my anxiety and depression. It seems to take so much effort for me to pretend to be okay around others so I isolate myself which only makes things worse. These things also make daily tasks feel like a chore. Simple things like taking a shower, making dinner, brushing my teeth seem to take so much effort that I can’t always do them. I’m struggling to find a good support system in my area as I’ve just been put on month long waiting lists with no responses. And the few friends I had no longer talk to me because I isolate myself.

My adhd was the catalyst for my depression and anxiety. I genuinely think I'd be a happier person if I didn't grow up with it, or if I was at least diagnosed sooner. (I had to fight for it at 15) My depression makes it hard to feel like taking care of myself and I'm super susceptible to substance issues. Whether thats because of my depression or my adhd i don't know. I'm years behind in school, i feel completely disconnected from others, and because ive been depressed for years I don't feel like I can wake up and think of anything else but what's going wrong. Every day that I wake up I need to navigate a world not built for me and its exhausting. I don't go a moment without my conditions affecting me.

I truly think my depression effects everything I do at this point because it does every feeling I have. It feels like trying to feel something through a thick layer of jello