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Pasazer

550d

I’m always having deep existential intrusive thoughts/realizations that are so intense they’re disturbing and feel completely unable to move past. And I get scared to confide in anyone, including my therapist, because what if they spiral about it like I am. Or what if I sound completely delusional for even thinking these things, ya know? Any advice?

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    • ArdenIris

      530d

      I completely relate, I have existential and suicidal obsessions so I struggle a lot between having a huge fear of death but also wanting to die. What I try and do for my existential ocd is to think more about the now, I focus on the tomorrow instead of the inevitable end. A big thing I love to do is make a list of things I want to do the next day before I go to sleep and it keeps me grounded and excited about tomorrow instead of worrying about the future.

    • ArdenIris

      530d

      I completely relate, I have existential and suicidal obsessions so I struggle a lot between having a huge fear of death but also wanting to die. What I try and do for my existential ocd is to think more about the now, I focus on the tomorrow instead of the inevitable end. A big thing I love to do is make a list of things I want to do the next day before I go to sleep and it keeps me grounded and excited about tomorrow instead of worrying about the future.

    • Mazzyllene

      537d

      My OCD has been partially erased with counseling. I just have ocd traits now. I still struggle with intrusive thoughts, but mindful thinking has greatly helped. Also, venlafaxine is HUGE for me in keeping it under control.

    • keropel

      537d

      I've gone through a similar past and had to find out how to make my way through. Maybe we could talk and help one another. Feel free to send me a message if you'd like 🙂

    • Knees

      550d

      I can totally relate. I’ve found that doing things that distract or make you insanely happy help a lot to deter the ocd. With your therapist, being truthful is always helpful. For example, when I don’t go to a therapist I get intrusive violent thoughts and I spoke to her about this and we found ways to deal. A therapist will never help if you can’t tell the truth. And sometimes it’s terrifying to speak about these things aloud, but once you get it out you feel leaps and bounds better.

      • Pasazer

        550d

        @Knees thank you! I think I’ll tell her next session or at least bring up the need to tell her and she can help me talk about it. You’re so right, I can remember feeling better when I first got diagnosed because I finally told my therapist about my struggles. I appreciate you! And as for the distraction I think I have finally found a genuine hobby!!! I haven’t had a hobby since high school like 2 years ago and recently I started making collages and mixed media art which I think I will utilize more now that you mentioned it. Thank you!

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