Struggling with Friendship and Self-Worth

I have gone through a period where I had harbored similar feelings towards myself. I wasn't even giving myself the chance to be a better friend to people I care for and felt it was better off sparing them. By doing that I was actually hurting people that truly cared for me. Do your best to remind yourself that everyone makes mistakes and can hurt others and sometimes you might not mesh and grow with someone you once did. You aren't a bad person and have the ability to foster positive relationships. It is Work but it is Worth it.

I completely have been there. It’s so easy to do especially when there’s so much stigma around BPD. Sure if you have no one around you, you can’t hurt anyone. But the way I see it which has helped me is, if I have no one around I also can’t help anyone. Your conditions don’t make you a bad person, it makes relationships difficult sure but you can still have positive relationships. It’s taken me nearly a year of inpatient therapy to start even considering the idea that I’m worthy of having people around me. It sucks but I hope you’ll get there.