Ashby

122d

I have been struggling mentally very much lately. I was SA’d by my step brother when I was younger and only remember bits and pieces of it. I described what happened to my mom and stepdad (years after the matter) and they supported me and confronted him. He didn’t deny a thing and also cried. So after begging my parents for a year, I went to therapy and tried to open up about it and the therapist said that they might send someone to his house. My mom informed him then he started denying everything and said that he was young and I was basically too young to remember and the SA only happened x amount of times. My mom told me this and I said I don’t remember exactly how many times it happened or my exact age and that I explained it to the best of my recollection and she said “well I guess perception is reality” after this, i was never brought back to therapy and now I just feel so conflicted. I feel like it happened so long ago and I should be over it. I wonder if there is more stuff that happened that I don’t remember? (I still have new memories pop up that cause anxiety attacks) I also feel like my parents believe him more than me. They are supportive of me but also say things like “you have to face him” at family events, they also told him that we aren’t going to tell anyone what happened(i feel like it should be my story to tell) , then also saying that what I said had happened was my “perception.” I just need someone to let me know if it’s common to not remember everything, and for new memories to be triggered later in life, or if it really is just my perception. I was confident until he started denying everything and my parents started acting funny. I feel so invalidated and wonder if my mind is playing tricks on me. If anyone has any knowledge on this, please let me know!

Sexual abuse, suspected

Anxiety (Including GAD)

Panic Disorder

Child sexual abuse

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  • wise

    122d

    it's SUPER common to only remember bits and pieces and to have new memories triggered years later. your family sucks for a litany of reasons. it IS your story to tell, and you deserve to have actual support and to see a therapist if that's what you feel would be best for you

    • Ashby

      121d

      thank you I really appreciate you saying this 💚

  • Jshor18

    121d

    I'm so sorry you had to go through that, if you need to talk I'm here

  • Catlady121427

    121d

    I'm a willing ear 👂 if U need to rant

  • SpickleManIckle

    121d

    When you go through something that traumatizing it’s common to not even remember it at all. It’s your brains way of protecting you. But I believe you. You are so strong for seeking help for what you’ve been through. And I’m incredibly proud of you for seeking out support here and in your personal life.

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