Controlling Anxiety with Suicidal Thoughts

my anxiety stopped when i developed an eating disorder i think it’s because my mind was consumed by something else

Yes actually? The thought of having peace, an end, is calming. That’s probably terrible but true

i guess, yeah. i feel less stressed when i know there’s a way out. everything matters less, “it’s okay if i mess up because i want to die, and when i do it won’t matter.” the change in the way i think is…helpful? helpful is the wrong word but honestly sometimes feeling suicidal gets rid of the anxiety…