Feeling Stuck and Overwhelmed with Mental Health Struggles

Hey everyone, i feel like this is the only place i can post this and people understand me. I am 25 with AS MDD and GAD. I feel like a failure because i am not actively doing what i got my masters degree in. I feel like an imposter and cannot/should not if i am depressed and anxious myself and have such difficulty taking care of myself. I got married 2 years ago and often get the question “when are you having kids”. I hate this question because i hear it often. I hate it because i know with my symptoms i am no where near being ready for that. I need some encouragement or something. I feel stuck in a rut trying to claw my way out. No matter how many times i have had a depressive episode like this before, it is so so hard! I am worried about the future and hate where i am now.