Seasonal Dissociation: Does Anyone Else Experience This?

I am having more severe episodes of dissociation than I have in the past nearly 2 years. It’s getting to the point I feel unsafe driving or going to work because I’m afraid I’ll freeze up. Any advice?

Lately I’ve been dissociating a lot. I’m not sure if it’s ptsd or anxiety related, or even from something else. But it’s getting bad. I dissociated for like whole day a few days ago. I thought leaving the house would help but I ended up buying things I didn’t need and embarrassing myself at the store in front of strangers. There’s been a new thing going on at home that’s triggering me, but I feel like I’m not myself anymore bc I’m so stressed all the time. I’m not too familiar with dissociating, but I’m almost positive that’s what’s going on. I’ll know things are real, but they don’t feel real. Sometimes it feels like this world is real but I’m only half here. Other times it feels like nothing is real and I feel like I’m dreaming and when I wake up everything will be normal. I know I’ll regret things later, but it feels like it doesn’t matter what I do. I’m scared I’m going to do something I’ll regret. Does any one have any tips for in the moment? I can’t figure out to pull myself out of it and be able to function. I can’t get rid of the trigger, so I have to find ways to cope with it. I can’t handle feeling so off all the time

Ppl of course know what spacing out is like but I have bad dissociation and not just a few days, recently the past yr and a half its gotten worse turning into wks and months on n off and I can no longer get help. No more therapist for 2yrs now, I've cold turkeyd 2 n a half yrs ago from my prozac cuz it wasn't helping and I currently have no insurance so I cant get back into therapy atm but I'm considering a few apps a few of you guys have mentioned so that's rlly the only hope I have right now. I don't know how to cut myself from dissociating cuz it makes me still like I cannot move and cant distract myself partly cuz I cant move and body paralyzes almost. That's the best I can describe it and idk how to help myself and everyone I've talked to ab it have either not understood me and my mental illness. This feels like its killing me and I try and try to motivate myself constantly, I'm really fucking depressed and kinda sick of life at this point if I feel I'm not in control and I'm stuck in my head talking to voices. I only wanna do better for myself and have been trying to get jobs I've applied to but constantly budging out after fails of calling them back and dunkin donuts being mad dumb don't even get me started lol but it's been a wacky roller coaster so yeah I'm just hoping for the best. I've recently applied to 4 jobs the past month but haven't called any back in almost 3 wks now and me dissociating doesn't help cuz that's basically how long its been going on for like harsh on me. I feel crazy cuz my whole family doesn't understand and my man only understands me to and extent and I'm overwhelming w all my shit sprinkles of mental ill-mess. Virtual hugs and insight would help plz an thank you🥺💜