Feeling Alone with ADHD: My Story

A never call in my medicines on time ☹️

I literally just asked my therapist the other day if she saw other people who have experienced as much trauma as I have. I told her I don’t mean to sound like I’m pitying myself but that I felt I had experienced more individual traumas than others around me. She kindly explained that I was seeing trauma as very black and white. It effects everyone differently, to different degrees. There are individualized traumas such as a car accidents or heart attacks, those are considered the big T’s. Then there is trauma that includes neglect or unhealthy learned behaviors from parents that are considered the little t’s. I began to feel extremely lost because I had experienced both T/t’s. I went years without medication because I thought I could out-think what I was feeling. I was mis-diagnosed for years before finally getting diagnosed with bipolar II and ADHD this year. I am now on medication that has drastically changed my life and continue therapy with an EMDR therapist for my PTSD. It was sooo hard to make that first call. Let alone getting out of the house to even pick up my meds. I’ve lost my car and quit many jobs. I’m in debt and working hard to get out of it. I’ve spiraled completely out of control, but here I am. Thank you so much for posting this and reminding me I am not alone in my journey. Social media especially makes it look like others lives are better than they are. I’m beyond grateful for this app for being able to share my experience and read others like yours. You have encouraged me to keep going today. I’m here rooting for you too!!!

I am just self-diagnosed, but I've realized that I've been having executive dysfunction problems for years. It's good being able to put a name to the struggle, but I'm also here for some tips!

I relate HEAVILY to this. I believe this phenomenon is caused by the DSM committees refusal to acknowledge SCT (commonly misdiagnosed as inattentive presentation) and the misdiagnosing of ADHD in general. ADHD is at it's core an Executive functioning disability cause by the delayed development in the frontal lobe. In English that means without proper treatment we can barely control out own actions in general no matter how much we may want to. It causes a lack of empathy for your future self. That being said there are people who simply posses light symptoms and just need that extra boost. I feel like without the correct support and treatment I would let myself drown if tossed into the rushing river of a capitalist society.

Especially, doing the best I can to not interrupt and pay attention. I notice it mostly affects me when I am tired or had a bad day.

My ADHD impacts me a little bit. But sometimes my ADHD impacts me socially. Especially, when I zone out and don't do it on purpose. When someone is trying to talk to me.

welcome! i just joined this app today. i have adhd as well, and i think it fairly severely impacts me on a day-to-day basis. i say “i think” because it can be hard for me to distinguish which of my 4 diagnosed mental disorders are causing any one thing.

I can relate to that

I am with you. In some ways I am super functional, and in others, I am paralyzed by adhd paralysis, to the point, where I won’t even be able to think about certain subjects, it’s like my brain just stops at the start of a thought and turns around, even when the rest of my brain is screaming, to just think about a task.

i’m in very nearly the exact situation - and being on unpaid leave of absence for a separate-from-adhd health issue from my full time job that’s actively trying to fire me, asking for help has been the driving cause of my debilitating rejection sensitive dysphoria. i’m struggling with day to day functions. i can’t even check my email, which lives on the phone that i’m on 12 hours a day lately 🙃 like everyone else in this comment section, i’m here for you. please reach out if chatting would alleviate some of the emotional distress.

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I fully understand my ADHD makes me almost non functional in a number of ways and I cant even be medicated for it! At least we arent alone

Hey I'm doing the same thing. I have very severe adhd inattentive type and desperate for help. Looks like there's some good people on here. Let me know if you need anything specific

Welcome!!